Why?

Posted in stories on December 4, 2009 by il0veu

Before

After

I still have it. It was the first time a guy gave me flowers as a gift. Even though i’m not in contact with him anymore, i guess i still feel i have a part of ours together. I still remember all the times we shared. The tears, laughter and little arguments that makes everything felt special. I’m glad i knew you at some point of my life.

However, till today, i still wonder to myself about why you left without even saying goodbye…Is is my fault all of these have to end? or isit just fate that we ended everything without even a smile on our face?

Everytime i see you, my heart stop beating. Like as if i can hear your voice or even see you smile if it stops beating. I devastated as you went away like that. I wish i have the courage to come up to you and ask why…But i don’t have it..=[

My only wish for now is to know why exactly you went off without even saying goodbye..how i long to hear your voice and see your smile…

The IDEALIST

Posted in stories on July 22, 2009 by il0veu

I took this personality test in a website for my RJ reflection last monday. It was somehow true and it really helps me to understand who am I really. I hope it will make you readers understand me too!

So, for the test results, i got ENFJ for it. E stands for Extraverted (78%), N stands for iNtuitive (12%), F stands for Feeling (12%) and lastly J stands for Judging (44%).

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ’s main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

ENFJs know and appreciate people. They are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. They often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.

Idealist women tend to be very romantic. They love to give and receive tokens of affection, such as an original poem, a hand carved box, or an item which reminds them of some shared experience. Men often appreciate their compassion and empathy along with their belief in others. When dating, they hope they’ll get to know each other through deep conversation.They’re very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the them a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as they are, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

What i’ve wriiten above was all taken on the website http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFJ.html and http://typelogic.com/enfj.html.

It is what i feel would better make you understand ME!…=)

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my laptop clock need to change battery too la…haha

Posted in stories on June 18, 2009 by il0veu

funny!

Posted in stories on June 14, 2009 by il0veu

i rather be alone right now…..cos, im always alone….

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Trip to the Zoo!

Posted in stories on June 9, 2009 by il0veu

At last i got a chance to go to the ZOO!!…I really miss tat place la sey..hehe…It was FUN, FUN and FUN!!!

I managed to go visit every animals exibit available ( i think!..hehe..)
I will go there again next time..=)
Maybe the night safari too tau awak !!..(wink2!)

Here’s some of the pixs i took…
PS: BTW, shud i go back there to get the photos thats being taken by them???…

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Thanks Awak for making time to accompany me to the ZOO!
Also for having patience tolerating with my nonsense ALL the time..hehe…
Thank you…

aini wonders why???

Posted in stories on May 19, 2009 by il0veu

lay low

This picture above best describe how i’m feeling right now…..

Firstly, i woke up late!!!!…for like all of my TUESDAY!!!!!…too tired to wake up cos the day before i was working…=(
i will have to end this right now…QUIT will be the best way to stop this..

Secondly, my day is toooo tiring..All the equations, laws and calculation really make me go round and round (like merri-go-round)..hehehe….

Actually after school i have extra lesson…but my brain…its shutdown already…=(
haix….Tuesday use to be my best day of the week…but now it turns out to be bad all the time!!!

Ai’ni wants to be love!!!..=P

cookies….

Posted in stories on May 11, 2009 by il0veu

I baked cookies last night…hehehe….I hope it taste good!…=P

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Thinking of you…

Posted in stories on May 10, 2009 by il0veu

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Life…

Posted in stories on May 1, 2009 by il0veu

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

Bertrand Russell

This quote that i found in the net really got me thinking about life….It is a very simple thing that is made complicated with many things…

I guess it’s right about the part in life we are always longing to look for true love, knowledge along the way and if we are a true human with a right mind, we do feel pity and sad for those unfortunate ones…

For me, I enjoy this first phase in my life not knowing what is infront of me. I guess it is better that way as sometimes its a beautiful or pain surprise. It beautiful, keep it as memories…If sad, take it as a learning point and never repeat the same mistake again!

My journey still have a long way to go…What i’ve learnt so far is not to depend or wait for something that you don’t know if it is coming true or not…Go with the flow of life and experience it yourself, that will be better than holding on to somthing uncertain…

If that something is for you, it will never run away and will always be waiting for you at the place it should be…

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My favourite cartoon

Posted in stories on April 22, 2009 by il0veu

olla…

No school for today so woke up late and watch cartoon in the noon…hehe…
And i got a chance to catch my favourite cartoon DragonTales…
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I wish i’m in their journey of fun and happiness….

I love this rhyme they say to go to Dragon Land.
” I wish, I wish with all my heart
to fly with dragon in the land of heart…”

hehehe…=P